Have you ever got that sudden urge to clean and not 10 minutes later you found yourself sitting down surrounded by so many things that you didn’t know what to tackle next? I have. More times than I will ever admit I’m sure. This happened to me just the other day. I got the urge. So much so that I even strapped on my sneakers because dang it I had stuff to do. I started a load of laundry, filled my glass with water and headed outside. I’ve been needing to tackle our cargo trailer since we moved back into the camper. I started with what I found first and worked my way from front to back. I left some things in totes, made a pile of things for the camper and for the house. In the very last tote is where I found it. It (what it was) doesn’t even actually matter, but I can tell you it was a kitchen appliance. Still new and in the box. I grabbed it, walked past my piles and straight into the house. As I sat there and opened the box I was overwhelmed with frustration. What a waste. I wanted this so bad. Can it go with me in the camper? Will it be useful here at the house? What a nifty little gadget. It is so beautiful. Should I give it away? Should I sell it? And then I froze. I looked around and saw all the things around me. It is so much.
I think when I moved out and started to mingle with different circles and explored different interest is when I started wanting all the things. When I partied, I wanted the good drinks, the pretty bottles of whiskey, and a cute shirt for Friday night. When I got into photography I wanted the fancy camera, the nice glass, the new camera bag. When I started loving to cook I wanted all the cool kitchen things. I think it comes naturally to us humans. There has been a time or two in life that I wanted the things because someone else had them, but it was always more than that. I thought the things would get me there, would make me better, and would satisfy my craving. And maybe they did. For a minute or two. What I didn’t know in my early twenties that I know now is that the things are a total drag. A money pit. Constant work. And extremely exhausting.
Now, this isn’t going to turn into one of those post about ditching all your shit and fixing your life forever, but I would like to mention that I do know that living with less stuff is freeing. I think one of the reasons I’m so at ease when I’m in the camper is because my space and my things aren’t overwhelming. If I do get overwhelmed by things it normally only takes trashing a thing or two to get it back in order. I’m laser focused in the camper. I have what I have and that is the end of it. If I decided to try a new hobby I quickly get rid of the old one or lessen something else in my life. You feel me?
Life changes and so do we. That is ok. Great, actually. So let it change. Let yourself change, but don’t also hold on to the old you because you aren’t confident in where you are headed. Don’t hold on to that old towel because it used to be your favorite. It is ok if you don’t like owl decor anymore and got a new one. Let it go. Don’t keep your skinny or fat clothes. For obvious reasons, but also because if you lose or gain weight you will want the fresh fabrics and trends a new season of your life brings. Don’t keep that shampoo you hate, but feel like you should keep because you bought it when you forgot your good stuff. Toss it or give it away. The more stages I go through in life and the more and more I learn about what truly makes me happy I realize that there is true value in a space you feel good in. If it was a waste of your money then take a mental note and try better at picking your purchases next time, but don’t for the love of all the great things in the world keep things that weigh you down. Please get rid of some things. Create a life and space that inspires you to be yourself and spend time doing things that make you happy.
I have decided that I’m going to keep that appliance. I think it will serve a great purpose for me to cook for myself when I’m at the big house alone. I have another appliance still in the box from Christmas that is similar that I plan to give away. To be honest this process is going to take awhile. I’ve been on this rollercoaster adventure since we ditched living in a real home full time and got one of those homes on wheels. I have a LOT of shit. BUT I’ve got rid of a lot also. I’ve sold some, given some away, and trashed some. It is a constant process. It will never go away. I just want us to be conscious of how all the things make us feel and to keep that in check. Remember this feeling when you add that last minute item to your amazon shopping cart (yes, I’m talking to myself). Remember this feeling when your girlfriend haasss to have something and somehow you all of the sudden “wanted it to.” Things and gadgets are cool, but a free mind and extra time to do fun things is better. Keep your space workable, so you can get outside and live a little.